#THIS FUCKING SHOWWWW I’M ILL

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The ending to episode 1 was just a hit to the face with a bat. It was beautifully done but SO devastating.

YOU’RE RIGHTTTT OH MY GOD. what drives me crazy is the singular piano key repeating as charles finds the metal bones compared to the grand orchestra that normally plays whenever the trio finds a dead body. due to sazz being the first victim that’s a friend to everyone in the trio, there’s a switch up in routine of the soundtrack that creates such a drastically different tone compared to the trio finding tim, bunny, and ben’s bodies. the scene was so well done but it made me feel so sick at the same time

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THANK YOU HACE I LOVE YOU SM--

After ages of thinking, i decided i want to nerd about Bojack horseman.

You don't need to read all of this essay, just the chance to actually PUT these thoughts somewhere makes me happy <3

*rubs hands*

OK SO

CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CHARACTER ARCS

I am trash at wording so don't be surprised if this is poorly redacted.

(A LOTTA SPOILERS AHEAD)

Bojack is by far the most relatable character in the show, for me at least. It's funny how this series teached me how to make relatability via struggles. I've never seen such an accurate representation of depression, and some episodes hit real close to home- for example, the "Stupid piece of sh-t" monologue at the beginning of the episode of the same name. They don't dramatize it, like OTHER SHOWS DO- (Yes 13ReasonsWhy I'm looking at you), and paint an accurate picture of how this illness holds Bojack back from being the better person he wants to be. His relationship with his mom was... Interesting to say the least.

The old Sugarman Place episode was haunting. Showing how the abuse from Beatrice's father shaped her into the person she ended up being. And how the cycle of abuse painfully repeats for generations. Her brother's death, her having to deal with his mother's grief and depression alone since her asshole dad didn't do sh-t to help the family move on after Crackerjack's death, and her mother's eventual and tragic lobotomy.

Just,,, Jesus this show.

Another thing I love about it, is how it made me understand that it was okay to emphasize with Beatrice, but one needed to understand that it didn't justify all the horrible abuse SHE put on Bojack, forever hammering in his head the "Don't stop dancing" motto.

Now, back to Bojack cuz BOY this is going to be a long essay.

The moment i knew this show was special was in season 2's "Escape from LA" another 'fuck-your-mind-up-and-move-on' episode. The things Bojack did were so terrible that- I mean i couldn't believe it. I was thinking all along "Nah, he wouldn't do it, he's the protagonist, he can't be THAT bad-"

AND THEM BOOM.

The mf almost sleeps with a 17-year-old and the show slaps you in the face with the realization that THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED-

Something that makes me laugh are the consequences, not because they're stupid or anything like that. But were painfully accurate.

I think my mind was as anxious as Bojack's. Once the ACTUAL truth about his involvement in Sarah Lynn's death, and the cycles of abuse of power in his relationships came to the public eye, came what I expected: people actively shutting him out, insulting him, giving him those horrid judging looks,,, urgh- i felt that. (That second interview that revealed everything could have gone better, but it also could have gone worse. They didn't even explore the Escape from LA incident, or Gina's strangling in Bojack's opioid lash out.)

But yeah, once after the events of The view from halfway down (THAT I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO COVER CUZ OH GOD I WON'T FINISH) things start,,, looking up? Sure, Bojack gets arrested for trespassing (even though he affirms that he thinks it was for a but if everything) and he spends a good time there with the other inmates, they participate in plays, and even Bojack himself admits that he would go as a volunteer once he was out of jail.

I thought the consequences were going to be WAY worse, but when you look back at it you go: "Huh, well that wasn't that bad-"

Now, the final episode.

I LOVE the relationship between BJ and Mr. Peanut butter. The lad finally decides to dedicate time to himself and to not to worry about his marriages. You just gotta love this dog.

Then, Princess Caroline.

I LOVE HER OK?

Her entire character arc about being a mother and finally letting go of his codependency on Bojack was magical.

Seeing the roots of her impulsive "i have to take care of everything" attitude through the 6 seasons allowed me to see her grow, change. Seeing her triumph and fail (very painfully sometimes, man).

In the final scene with her it's so wonderful to see Bojack cheering on her, and Princess Caroline openly admitting she won't work with him anymore. And both just, dancing peacefully to the vals, accepting that their relationship is over with such big smiles... *Sobs*

God. This. SHOW.

And now, good boy Todd.

I kind of relate to him too, and it gives me hope to see him being so independent after everything.

After Bojack ruined his Rock Opera so he wouldn't leave, after he also rescued him from that Improv cult, after all of the good, and ALSO the bad. He leaves.

He goes to make his new life, with his girlfriend, in a new apartment, and now in a good relationship with his mom. It's so wholesome I love Todd sm-

And even after actively pushing back from Bojack, he's still there to support him and cheer him up, even backing off so he doesn't get pulled into that again.

His words in his final scene always stuck with me "It was nice while it lasted right?"

Perfect.

And now,,,, Diane.

Holy cow where do I even start.

I do agree with most fans about how she wasn't "as good" in the first season, and how that changed in season 6, where we see her in a more domestic environment.

Now, I always loved Diane. I emphasized a lot with her struggles of being a writer (those episodes made ma laugh), not appreciating the little things we have, and wanting to do great things but- not- quite reaching it.

I always found interesting how she never let go of Bojack until it was "too late"

They always brought up the worse in each other, two people with the same unhealthy coping mechanisms isn't exactly a good combination.

I teared up when she moved out with Guy and actually learned to trust the feeling of safety, after a whole life of being used to abuse, that was everything that made sense to her. But it didn't have to stay like that. It was hard for her to start taking her antidepressants again but she did and she got better! (Shame Bojack pushed her into breaking point-)

The last scene, of her, of Bojack, of the entire series, I always rewatch "Nice while it lasted" for this scene only.

She confronts him on how he called her before he almost drowned in a pool. She thought he was dead, she thought it was her fault for not saving him. But as Bojack said "It was never her job". But he always made her feel like it was.

Oof... You can't actually fix that, can you?

Diane's "You can be grateful for the people around you, even if they weren't meant to be in your life forever" hit me like a truck. It actually helped me to learn to cut ties, that it was okay to be grateful, to not forgive horrible things, to move on and wish the other person the very best.

And then they sit, staring at the night sky, Catherine Feeny's Mr. Blue starts playing.

And I am bawling my eyes out.

That moment of silence, when there's nothing to say, when you both understand that this is it, and there's nothing else to do than to admire the night.

God. THIS. SHOWWWW,,,,

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

And lastly, thank you so much for this opportunity Jace, i love you so much <3

This series has helped me a lot (like you have <33) and I'm just so happy to share my nerdiness of this show <3

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MOAR EXCITE FOR RIKARA THAN SHIVIKA TODAY!!!!! un dono ka toh roz hota rehta hai, showwww me my dabba babiessss in lauuuuuu today! 😍😍😍

aur khabardaar agar rudra/bhavya background mein bhi aas paaas ya saath dikhaayi de toh!!!!!!!!!! 😠😠😠

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snort. seems like every conspirator here is heavy on the cheese while planning these little shenanigans. 😗😗😗

STOP BEING MEANNNNN BILLU. 😠😠😠

also, stop calling this the fucking ‘storeroom’. 🙄🙄🙄

the way he instantly trailed off when he saw the hurt on her face though. 😥😥😥

odd choice of flashback clips. why’re they only showing the sexyyyyy bits? like... this isn’t a really ‘remember how hot we were for each other’ kinda moment. 🤔🤔🤔

oh. eent ka jawaab patthar. taane pe taana. why should she be the only one with hurt feelings here? 😪😪😪

sigh. these idiot children. 😔😔😔

“jab mujhe gussa aata hai toh mujhe khidkitod bhook lagti hai!!!”

lololol billu trying to avoid the lureeeeeeee of khaana, but it’s not working. 😆😆😆

abbe oh angrez ki aulaad, keep your fork and knife advice to yourself before you find one of them impaled into your left eyeball. 😒😒😒

lmao “kadhaai ko sar pe rakh ke khaaon” hahaha 😂😂😂

lol she just called ragini “NAAGINI” 🐍🐍🐍

yaaaaaaaaaaas queen, call him and his BS out! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

ooooop. ab aayi na asli baat baahar. 🙊🙊🙊

billu is struck silent. he didn’t realise that these silly little things he used to chastise her about made her feel insecure and unworthy of being married to him. 😞😞😞😭😭😭

oh man, his quiet little voice. my heart. my fucking hearttttt. 💔💔💔

omru ko what??!!?! i didn’t catch what he said despite multiple times rewinding... 🤔🤔🤔

if you caught what he said, please leave it in the comments! 👇🏽👇🏽👇🏽

anika’s doing a better job of not showing her emotions on her face, but her shaky voice is giving her away. meanwhile, this fucker...

...is 3 nanoseconds away from bursting into tears. 😥😥😥

aaaaaaaaaaand he’s crying. and masking it with coughing. 😪😪😪

and i’m cryingggggg. to give him some company. 😭😭😭

both these assholes; where the fuck do they get off being mad at each other for believing the other one at face value of what they decided to show each other, and went to great lengths to prove??? first him with the ragini engagement thing, and now her, with the gold digger stunt. 😒😒😒

such an unhealthy fucking realtionship. you fuckers need therapy. 😤😤😤

errrrrrrrr.... ok? what was that sound? 🤔🤔🤔

what??? that was gauri ki cheenkein? HEARD TILL HERE????? matlab, what earth shattering, dad-like cheenkein is she getting? 😟😟😟

you know what i mean? like dads are just not capable of sneezing like a normal person. it’s always like a fucking bomb going off. 😖😖😖

lmaooooo, anika’s learning that being a homeowner isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. 😂😂😂

lo, lag gaya 15,000 ka chuna, billu ke ek hi laath mein. 🙈🙈🙈🙈

lol what is he madder about? the challenge, or that she’s bad at math? fuck you billu, not all of us can be good at math. 😒😒😒

wow, bulbul does really have the most violent, dad-like sneezes. 😕😕😕

pft, bhaujaaai toh bulbul ki jaan hi lene mein tuli hui hai. 😈😈😈

snort, soooo subtle with the hints, anika. 😆😆😆

snort, the faces of a newlywed couple being offered a hotel room: 

OMFG THE WINK. HAAAAAAAAAYE. 😍😍😍

lol rudra’s tharkiiiiiii smile. 😂😂😂

IS THIS GIRL MAD? matlab, hadh hoti hai chindi hone ki. JUST ACCEPT BADE BHAIYYA’S OFFER OF THE HOTEL ROOM, IDIOT CHILD. 😫😫😫

aur kuch nahi toh it has a fucking minibar. paid for by shivaay singh oberoi. he can afford the 350% markup on that minican of pringles. 🙃🙃🙃

i am om’s wtf’s headshake. 😐😐😐

SHE SAID BAGICHA. THIS ISN’T EVEN THE BAGICHA, ITS THE DAMN PARKING LOT. 😖😖😖

stopppppppp being an asshole, om. go give her the damn blanket. 😑😑😑

haaaaaaye, the way he’s looking at her. 😧😧😧

thanks to @vishwaspur‘s fetish re: kunal’s hands, it’s all i can look at. and mmmmhmmm, i agree girl. those are some verrrrrrry nice hands put them on me 😏😏😏 

“please, please, let’s not fight.”

yes. make out inside the tent instead. 😚😚😚

lollllllll khopchaaaa. i haven’t heard anyone (other than myself) use that word in a really long time. 😊😊😊

omfg i can’t deal with his intense sexy staring, yougaiz. it’s doing things to me. 😧😧😧🤒🤒🤒🤤🤤🤤

ok, no need to get all bossy. jesusssssss. 😒😒😒

ok this is the most ridiculous BS ever. are you telling me he’s gonna stand here all fucking night holding on to the tent? like... so unneccessary and extra. 🙄🙄🙄

huh. i guess that’s what these fuckers mean by ISHQBAAZI. 😑😑😑

SHE LIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😌😌😌

and is having a bit of a carrie white moment??? 😯😯😯

ok wow. things have gotten prettttttttty bad here. even mild mannered prinku is angry enough to throw things. 😬😬😬

.... same, ranveer. same. 😐😐😐

yo man mansi and amrapali look almost the same??? please tell me you notice it toooooo!!!!!!!!! 

wow, so ranveer loves her for real now? huh. 😕😕😕

remember when yesterday, i was like “i care about prinkveer more than ruvya”??? yeah, i was wrong. i apparently have the same lack of fucks to give for both. 🤷🏽🤷🏽🤷🏽

ANIKA PLEASE. STOP REPURPOSING THE TABLECLOTHS YOU FIND AROUND THE HOUSE INTO TOPS. I BEG OF YOU. WHAT THE FUCK EVEN IS THAT ONE SLEEVE??????? 😟😟😟

ew, he’s back in this ugly shirt/suit combo. fuck my eyes, i guess. 🙄🙄🙄

kyun, smile karne se pehle gazette mein chapwaana hota hai kya? 😒😒😒

lmao what nonsense. that side of the room looks out into the library/pool area. why wouldn’t you idiots pick the OTHER side of the room with all the windows to set this scene up at??? 😣😣😣

oh ho ho, billu wants to know wifely feelings. 😏😏😏

siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. i’m smile-cryinggggggggg. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

rudra is us. we are rudra. 😘😘😘

lmao his eyebrow jiggles tho. 😂😂😂

lmaooooooooo ragini’s just randomly lying on the stairs and taking selfies. 😂😂😂

tbh, if i was rich and had a house that big, i’d be doing shit like that too. so no judgement. you do you, ragini. 😌😌😌

damn, what is with all the women in these shows being willing to throw themselves down the stairs for these shitty men? ladies, srsly. check yourselves before you literally wreck yourselves. 😖😖😖

lmaoooooo bitchy glare standoff. 🙃🙃🙃

THIS I SLEPT UNCOMFORTABLY ALL NIGHT COZ I LOVE YOU TROPE.  I FUCKING LOVE THIS TROPE OKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. 💖💖💖💖💖💖

no but, how is he not even leaning sideways even a little? aise ramrod straight kaun sota hai? 🤔🤔🤔

haaaaaaaye my bulbul. such pretty. HOW IS SHE SO GORGEOUS???? 😍😍😍

time for kaho na pyaar haiiiiiiiiii trope. 😊😊😊

pft. such translucent dupatta, usse kya hona hai??? 🙄🙄🙄

I REALLY DON’T CARE ABOUT RANVEER. WHERE THE FUCKKKKKK IS MAHI??????? 😩😩😩

“yakeeen nahi aa raha hai ki PRAAAANKA...”

humein bhi yakeen nahi aa raha... ki you can’t say a simpleass name like PRIYANKA the way it’s supposed to be said. 😐😐😐

waaaah, stigmatization of mental illness also. bas yahi baaki tha is show mein. 😒😒😒

“haan woh thodi mentally upset hai kyunki...”

hmmm let’s see... 🤔🤔🤔

1. i was harassing her whole fam continuously for over 8 - 9 months now 

2. she was sexually assaulted 

3. i drugged her into believing that she was pregnant 

4. i was physically and mentally abusive during that time 

5. i emotionally blackmailed her into forgiving and marrying me

... need i go on? 😒😒😒

LMAO KAMINI’S FRUSTRATION AT HAVING TO DEAL WITH PRINKVEER’S EXISTENCE = ME. 

ok whatever, don’t care anymore. fwding. ⏩⏩⏩

lololol ok omki. whatever you say. apne upar se yeh jhaad patttiiyaaan toh utaar de. 😆😆😆

omfg his cute “fuck i messed up” face. GODDAMNIT, WHY IS HE SO CUTE???????? 😍😍😍😭😭😭

hahaha awwwwwwwwwww, he just got caught. twice. 😊😊😊

this chiraiyya is very sayaaani. you can’t fool her so easy, omki. 😉😉😉

KISS HIM. KISSSSSSSSSSS HIM, BULBULLLLLLLLLLL. COME ONNNNNNNNN. 😚😚😚😚😚

.... or authoritatively slip your hands into his vest to pick out leaves. that works too. just sexxxxxx himmmmmm uppppppppp. 😏😏😏

OMFG KISSSSSSSSSSSSS GODDAMNIT. HOW ARE YOU TWO ATTRACTIVE MOTHERFUCKERS RESISTING EACH OTHER????? 😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧 JESUS!!!!!!!!!!! IMMA DIE FROM THE SEXUAL TENSION HERE. 

“bas. thankoo.” 😍😍😍

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII YOU STARE AT HER LEAVE WITH LOVE SICK EYES AND A SMILE. WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖🎉🎉🎉🎉✨✨✨✨

“moch, soch, aur loch, main sabbbb jaanti hoon.” lmaoooooooo 😂😂😂

arrrre waaah. emotional blackmail re: the dinner last night. 😗😗😗

oh boy, anika’s back with another glass. 😬😬😬

hahah “alooo shalooo khaaya karo” 😂😂😂

WAIT, WHAT’S ALOOOO KA HALWA?!?!?! THOSE ARE MY TWO FAVT THINGS. *pauses episode to google if such a thing exists* 😧😧😧

OMFG IT DOES. I KNOW WHAT I’M MAKING OVER THE WEEKEND. 😱😱😱

lmao shivaay’s face at anika’s nuskhe are the best. even yesterday, he just looked at her like “the fuckkkk”, but let her blabber on anyway. 😂😂😂

billu shall not hear a word against their family’s exalted kaadha, the miracle cure to everything, from a fever, to a gunshot wound. 😇😇😇

hee hee hee metaaaaaaaa reference to chantumaai vamp and hero ki hamdardi. anika’s been watching apne hi ghar ka cctv footage for kicks, methinks. 😂😂😂

lmao, she’s helllllbent on making her drink that water. 😆😆😆

shivaay’s “what am i going to do with this girllllll” face lololol 😙😙😙

how the fuck does ranveer keep affording all these expensive ass gifts on his public servant salary? 🤔🤔🤔

OMFG PRINKU’S WEARING MALLIKA’S BANGLES. DON’T EVEN FUCKING START WITH ME, I MIGHT CUT A BITCH, THAT’S HOW RAGEY I AM RIGHT NOW 😡😡😡😡😡😤😤😤😤😤

blah blah blah blah don’t care, fwding this nonsense. ⏩⏩⏩

but can’t help but notice that subha seems to have lost even more weight? she looks veryyyyy thin now. like in a not-healthy way. 😬😬😬

ugh from one boring couple, to another. uggggggggggggh. GIVE ME MORE RIKARA SEXINESSSSS YOU ASSHOLESSSSSSSSSS 😡😡😡😡😡😡

THIS FUCKING HOUSE HAS 30 BEDROOMS AND 45 BATHROOMS, WHY IS THIS FUCKING FIGHT EVEN HAPPENING!?!?!?!? 😠😠😠

whatttttt is this lameasssssss bs? THIS BANTER SUCKS ASS. DO I HAAAAVE TO CARE ABOUT THESE TWO FUCKERS, REALLY????? 😒😒😒

“aaaap itna TAM TAMAAA kyun rahe ho?” lmaooooooooo 😂😂😂😂

lol wow, billu is attached to”chantumaai” tag also. doesn’t like sharing it. 😋😋😋

pffffft, why should she tell you if you don’t have the akal to figure it out yourself? idiot. 🙄🙄🙄

“aap chup nahi reh sakte kya???”

a question i’ve been asking for 300+ episodes now. 😐😐😐

i could think of an even better way you could have shut him up, but chalo, abhi ke liye yeh bhi theek hai. 😗😗😗

oh my heart. she can’t help but caress his cheek. and he can’t help but instantly melt. OH MY FUCKING HEART. LOOK AT HIS FUCKING FACE. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

OMFG FUCKING FUCK YOU BHAVYA. WHY MUST YOU FUCKING RUIN EVERYTHING?!?!!?!? THEY WERE THIS CLOSE TO MAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😩😩😩😩

FUCK THEM AND THE PLAN. KISS EACH OTHERRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! 😫😫😫😫

ouff, again prinkveer garbage. fwding. better than this, just show me what sahil is up to at boarding school. did he even come back from that trip of his? he must be somewhere past the chinese border at this rate. 😕😕😕

^ me, stalking ppl from high school on facebook. 

these three fucking idiots are on the world’s most futile mission again. LORD. 😒😒😒

shivaay’s faith in anika’s khurafaati dimaagh tho. #needmeafreaklikethat 😊😊😊

kamala is some michmichi waala praaani that these burger bachche have never encountered in their life, isn’t it? 😗😗😗

rudra toh matlab, full on lux waala bathing beauty hai. 🛀🏽🛀🏽🛀🏽

lmaoooooooooo awwwwwww, shivKara can’t bear to hear baby bro scream like that and NOT GO HELP. 💖💖💖

UGH MORE RUVYA?!?!?! GROSS. DO NOT WANT. GIVE ME SHIVAAY AND ANIKA IN THE POOL. OM AND GAURI UNDER THE SHOWER. RAGINI’S FAALTU KE CHEHRE BEHIND PINKY’S BACK. SVETLANA’S SCHEMING. ANYTHING BUT THIS, UGHHHHHHHHHH. 😩😩😩😩😩😩